soaked to the bones.

i am grateful for bikram yoga (read: yoga done in a sauna) because for an hour and a half i couldn't be anywhere but there, absolutely there in all my sweat and glory and i still feel a lightness in my bones and an inability to travel anywhere else in time.

i am grateful for a lunch with my father when i had my own "i can choose to see this differently" moment. instead of judging him and feeling upset that he can't listen more or understand me more, i just ate my soup and talked about american idol and felt like okay, even though i didn't get everything that i wanted as a child from him, i am old enough to make the choice to love him and our relationship for what it is. my issues with my dad are so layered, and so key in my relationships with everyone, especially men. while i've been thinking so much lately about why i feel the way i do and evaluating what i saw growing up, it's really no wonder that i haven't attracted any men lately. i'm very okay with being single right now...it's just that sometimes i get scared that i am never going to meet anyone and there are always those societal pressures to find a good guy and settle down. but anyway... later my dad and i ate ice cream and wandered through stores. it was solid.

i am grateful that i felt creatively challenged at work today and left it all behind when i walked out the door.

i am grateful for the yoga pants molly left on my bed.

i am grateful for my big fledgedling collage that still needs work. making it is such a stream of consciousness as well. i'm going on my walk tomorrow after work to celebrate a week that went by so fast.

wish me luck with my practice presentation in front of the big boss guy tomorrow. he's super crotchedly....maybe a little like Mr. t in a suit.