mental activity.

1. i am grateful that you are also going through some guilt-withdrawel/life challenges too, because i can see it so much kinder when looking at it from your point of view. i was so upset after work today that i bought "codependent no more" at the local spirituality bookstore and chatted to the very quiet owner about wanting to take a guilt-fast and how it's so hard for me, etc. i guess i needed someone to talk to...a quick read through the book told me, yup, i am codependent, wanting to make people happy, often hard to figure out what i want, feeling responsible for so many things i cant control. i don't want to get too identified with names and conditions, but i do think this book could have some good clues to take another step. these are all just steps and being conscious of that brings so much to light.

2. i am grateful for waking up with a smile for the first time in a while.

3. i am grateful for a nice chat with my yoga teacher and another headstand.

4. i am grateful for diana and amani at work.


5. i am grateful for the handmade paper store. i am grateful for the wonderful smelling bushes that someone planted in the middle of the roundabout. i am grateful for the small glimpses of conscious presence that i cultivated admist my very confused thinking. i am grateful for reconnecting with kali over gchat. i am grateful for picking out fun music from my eye pod (hee) for the documentary piece. i am grateful for free cone day. i am grateful for another day, another opportunity to listen and try to understand/live well.

love to you!