a question of the head.

i am grateful for:

1. molly having vietnamese spring rolls and couscous waiting for me when i came home so tired (isn't it great that i always list something with food first?)
2. eating lunch with tiff by the fountain and talking about our grandparents with the sun and cold breeze upon us.
3. mike and katie's kind words when i was so tired and discouraged at the end of the day.
4. laughing at myself...an endless process.
5. be effortlessly on time this morning.
6. having laurie (my boss) compliment my writing and asking me for input on something else she was working on.
7. mexican sweet chili tea
8. getting this blog to work....

i'm very excited about the walk. i think i'm going to go tomorrow after work and explore a (hopefully) warm beginning of spring day.

ah, such a day, full of things both big and petty. i've been thinking a lot about living from my head, as opposed to my heart. it goes back to what i was telling you about trying to live my life like a clenched fist, that i hate doing something that i don't automatically shine at. in short, i'm a perfectionist and it's starting to get really old. i so much want to live from my heart, trusting and dusting myself off and falling from one adventure to the next. instead i was so stressed out after another practice presentation falling flat that i could barely relax for yoga class. what do i do to lighten up? the answer is nothing but it does not jive with so much of how i have always lived. it could mean some big changes that i can't work on....i just have to relax. during corpse pose at the end of class, i suddenly remembered a few times when i have been completely free and it gave me a lot of comfort to remember that a laughing, smiling, powerful woman exists within me and just because i haven't hung out with her so consistently in a while doesn't mean she isn't guiding me along this path.

goodnight soul sista. i hope you enjoyed your cheese curds.